Jen Hamilton, the lifestyle influencer with two million followers on Instagram, has opened up about the darkest moments of her split from estranged husband Brian Hamilton. The thirty-seven year old shared a deeply personal video on Instagram on July 21, addressing fans directly about the toll the separation has taken on her."There were a few moments I didn't know if I was going to live, OK? As you find out new information, that feeling of not being able to live gets pretty strong," she shared.This wasn't the first time Hamilton had addressed the situation publicly. Back on June 15, she had posted a TikTok video after speculation began circulating that her marriage was over. She was candid about how unprepared she felt stepping forward."I'm feeling embarrassed and feeling exposed and feeling sad, feeling every single thing you probably possibly feel. My publicists say that I should make a statement 'when I'm ready.' There is no being ready," shared Hamilton.As per her own account, she also wanted the initial statement to feel personal rather than polished, explaining that she called Brian and the two wrote it together. View this post on Instagram Instagram PostJen Hamilton reveals the truth behind her split from Brian Hamilton:During the same video, Jen Hamilton showed fans a joint statement that she and Brian had written together, displayed on the screen behind her."Yes, we are separating. This comes with enormous pain for the both of us but also gratitude for the 15 years of shared history, love, and friendship. What we are committed to is loving each other well through this transition and placing the wellbeing of the family we created at the center," the statement read.The statement continued with both Jen Hamilton and Brian addressing the reason behind their decision."We are hoping our paths diverging in physical location will make space and room for mental healing for the other. We still are committed to being a team. We even wrote this together (and without chatgpt)," shared the couple."We both want to be very clear. This wasn't about falling out of love. That's why this is so devastating. It was about recognizing that sometimes the most loving thing you can do is give someone space to figure out complex things. And that's exactly what we are doing," added the couple.Jen Hamilton responds to public speculation following her viral crying video:This isn't the first time that Jen Hamilton made headlines. As per a report shared by Us Weekly, Jen Hamilton had previously addressed something that had been sitting heavily on her. A video of herself crying had gone viral, and the public reaction to it caught her completely off guard.She was blunt about it."I am very embarrassed that I put a video of myself crying on the internet and I never should have done it. It was a moment of searing pain. And I just wanted somebody to tell me I was gonna be alright. There is no part of me that thinks that I am famous enough to end up in People magazine or the New York Post for something going on in my life," she shared."And that was dumb of me … because that is exactly what happened, and now in the midst of, like, the real-time pain that I feel, I'm having to deal with that part of it all," added Jen.Hamilton made clear she wasn't looking for sympathy, though. People get through this, she told her followers. She then made a few direct requests, the first being that people stop speculating."'Cause ain't none of y'all got it right, OK?"Jen Hamilton asks fans to be kind to Brian Hamilton amid their split:Before wrapping up her video, Jen Hamilton was clear about one thing. Only she and Brian know the full story."My next request is that you just be nice, OK?" she said. "He is my bestest friend still. There's no meanness, there's no yelling, there's no animosity between the two of us. I want him to win. I want him to be the very, very best version of himself, one that he's never even seen before. I feel like sometimes we can hold each other back from truly healing from the stuff we need to heal from," she continued.Hamilton then got emotional as she reflected on what Brian means to her."I love him more than I ever knew I could love somebody. And the both of us being the best versions of ourselves only helps our family. … I can't wait to meet the version of myself that figured out how to [heal]. She's gonna be really cool," she added.